Not In My Vocabulary … Anymore

Today’s Daily Prompt suggests visiting an event in the past that we think could have played out differently, and to write about what could, would, or should have happened.  Uh-uh.  I don’t do that … anymore at least.

I’m a dreamer.  Have an [over] active imagination.  Love to think up possibilities and see them through in my mind from start to finish.  Like to come up with Plan Bs,Cs, and all the way to backup plan Zs even.  “Paralysis by analysis”.  Yep, I’ve heard that phrase said about me before, both in my personal and my professional life.  All in all, this tendency of mine can be a blessing, can be of value and service to others … when balanced by a lovely KISS:  keep it simple silly.  Great thing to plan for the future.  I haven’t met goals in life simply by writing out a line or two on a piece of paper or word processor.  They needed plans and steps – and flowcharts, spreadsheets, and multi-layered bullet lists in my style of planning.  Terrific skill to have for looking ahead, not so much for looking behind.

If I apply all of those wonderful attributes of me to my past, I get lost, very very lost.  I waste time on futile observations and crafting scenes for a chapter that never did nor ever will get written, at least not for my autobiography.  I spend way too much time living in locations where I don’t hold a mortgage or pay rent = other people’s minds.  And even if, big IF, whatever even could have played out differently, who do I think I am for having the power to possess any control or insight into just exactly how it would have played out.  Silly me.
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