Look North. It’s Strong. It’s Free.


“God help me.”

It’s affectionately known as ‘the alcoholic’s prayer’ in the church basements I like to hang out in on a regular basis.  I know it well.  Have said it more times than I probably care to remember, or can remember for that matter.  Funny thing those blackouts us drunks experience.  Sometimes I’m grateful I can’t recall all of my shenanigans.

My old way of saying the alcoholic’s prayer went something like this …

God help me _____
[insert highly dramatic details of whatever so-called predicament I had found myself in]
and I will _____
[insert some bargaining chip I thought the big guy would fall for at the time, usually something to do with not drinking ever again].
This time will be different, I promise.
[insert sound of thunder somewhere in the world reflecting the noise of God’s hearty rolling-on-the-floor-of-heaven laughter]

The way I say it now … Continue reading

The Power Of Miracles


Tonight’s episode of the 6-part National Geographic miniseries, “The Story Of God” with Morgan Freeman is sadly the last.  But I am very happy about the topic they chose to end the series with:  The Power Of Miracles.  And how fitting.  To talk about miracles on a day many of us are celebrating the miracle of motherhood.

Do I believe in miracles?  Kinda yes, and kinda no.  Yeah, I know that’s not really an answer but it’s where I stand.  Or sit I guess since it’s on the fence. Continue reading

Gotta Get My Trudging Boots On.


The “Big Book” has two primary parts to it:  the basic text, and the personal stories of members.  There are 11 chapters with 164 pages to the basic text portion.  The last chapter is called ‘A Vision For You’.  Ain’t that a beautiful and grand way to end the core material of what is essentially a text book for life and for living that life?  They must have seen me coming.

The word abandon often has negative connotations to it.  Child abandonment.  Fear of abandonment in familial or other relationships.  Having to abandon a home as a result of natural disaster.  Scary thoughts those are. Continue reading

Why Does Evil Exist? I Dunno.


Tonight on the National Geographic Channel:  “The Story Of God” with Morgan Freeman, episode 5 – Why Does Evil Exist?.  9 pm ET / 8 pm CT.  Check your local listings.

I’ve been trying for a couple of days to write a post for today and I just can’t seem to put together anything of substance.  Was trying to write about evil to be in sync with tonight’s episode but I sure as heck don’t have a clue as to what the answer is so nothing to write on there.  Also didn’t want to start a big debate here on the topic, I’ll leave that for the experts.  And nope, I’m not ready to reveal to you all of my dirtiest secrets on the evil acts I have committed in my life.  I will tell you I flip the bird on occasion to other drivers though just so you are reminded I am a perfuctly fecked up human. Continue reading

Nah, I Like Steps Better. 12 To Be Precise.


I have taken many stairways in my days on this planet.  Some heading up, some heading down.  And some of those long winding circling ones that would make me dizzy if I ran up or down them too fast.  I’ve navigated them on my cute little bum, with a pair of crutches killing my armpits, and with my two left feet.  I’ve stumbled up them in a drunken stupor on my hands and knees, and I’ve fallen down them stone cold sober landing on my hands and knees. Continue reading